Thinking. Wondering.

Yea... here i am, with my tears again. Sometime i ask myself 'What am i crying for?'. Am i crying for the past? Or crying for things doesn't get as i wish. Once again, i listening for da things i dont wanna know. But why still i asking for it? People should move forward but why am i walking backward? It is true that i have been moving on for a long way, but why did u make me stop and going backward again? U push me to da floor and wants me to stand up by myself. After i stand up and i move on. But... i fall again, why u lend me ur hand to help me stand up, but on da half way i standing up, u took off ur hand and make me fall again. Dont u know it hurts? And it hurts alot. I know i have to stand up and move on by my own again. But why? Why things about u always appear in my sight? If u dont want me to think too much then why at da first place u say thing u shouldn't say? I believe u know me well, and these u should know too. Is u playing me? Or i playing myself? Am i asking for too much? In the end... I have nothing. Yes, i tired d. But why? Why i still find da pain by myself? Wondering... When i can have answer for my question marks?